Tuesday, December 5, 2006


Today is my son's birthday.  I have so much to say about my Alexander there would never be enough room.  I will, however, say what it is deep and true, the rest he knows.

I knew you were going to be different from birth.  "Hey Ma….I'm coming out up-side-down!!   Guess what?!?!?  You have to get to have a C-section!!"  Okay, I've given you enough grief over the  years for that one.

When I look at you, I see me.  When I speak to you, I hear me.  When you have cried, I hear myself.  When you throw things out of that Greek anger, I'm doing the same thing.  You won't listen when others warn you.  You need to learn it on your own.  It took me a long time to realize this about you, but I get it now.  I'm just sorry I didn't  get it sooner (I could have saved myself a lot of yelling!).

My dear Alexander….I named you that for a reason.  Alexander the great.  The God of Strength.  That is what you show when other picked on you and you cried in my arms.  When the doctors wanted you on drugs and you said "NO!" and I listened; you were right.  There was never anything 'wrong' with you.  You are just my free spirit.

My son, who will stop at nothing to protect his  family.  My son, who loves his country and gets angry at those who don't.  My son, the Republican, but wasn't before.  My son, who was the only one who thought it was "totally awesome" that I was honored by the White House and as a Founding Sponsor of the the National Museum of the United States Army. 

Now you aren't Alexander, you are just Alex to all of the friends you have made.  I am still your Mommy.  No matter how much we joke around, make each other secretly smile because nobody else gets it.  You, Alex, are destined to do great things and I hope and pray that I am there to see it all.

Rock on….Alex…the world is just waiting for you to do what you were meant to do.

I have songs for each of my children for different reasons.  The song for Alex is by John Mayer….

No Such Thing:

"Welcome to the real world", she said to me
Take a seat
Take your life
Plot it out in black and white
Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding
Up my sleeve

They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

So the good boys and girls take the so called right track
Faded white hats
Grabbing credits and
Maybe transfers
They read all the books but they can't find the answers
And all of our parents
They're getting older
I wonder if they've wished for anything better
While in their memories
Tiny tragedies

They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you got to rise above

I am invincible(3x)
As long as I'm alive

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

I just can't wait 'til my 10 year reunion
I'm gonna bust down the double doors
And when I stand on these tables before you
You will know what all this time was for

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Sunday, December 3, 2006


I was about to type about the weather here in the Midwest, but as I sat here and looked deep inside, I realized I had much more to say.

I keep hearing about the "Christmas War" within America.  It seemed to start heavily last year.  So now we have retailers  making sure they are pointing it out to the media that they are using the word "Christmas" in their advertising. Is this any better?  Are they doing it for the bucks or not?  Heck, I was on the bandwagon right along with it!

This is what it comes down to…trust.  Do you trust the retailer you shop?  Will you give to those less fortunate than yourself?  Will you send cards to Bethesda to our injured hero's?  Will you take time to light a candle for those who served and passed?  What will you do?  Will you stop and pray when you see a manger scene?

The question shouldn't be about our retailers who make billions of dollars every year.  Whether or not we solicit them for goods or services is our own choice.  The question is what we should ask ourselves is,  what do we, as individuals, do to celebrate the season?  Insult the other side for our beliefs?  Is this what God would have wanted?  Did Jesus do that?  I think not. 

This is the time of year to forget about all that.  It's time to look in the mirror at ourselves.  It's time to look at what we do to help those who need it and not get angry at those who either have it or want it.

Remember, God loves us each, one and all.  We should reach out to those who can't for themselves.  We should not be concerned with those who don't understand the truth of love and joy, but just give it to them.  Make their heads spin with love and goodness.

Goodness….it is all that makes us conservative.  It's beautiful and always will be.

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Friday, December 1, 2006


So today is my birthday…who cares how old I am.  Thanks to Travis Tritt, John Cougar Melancamp, and just growing up as a Midwestern girl, I have learned much.  I have had family members die in uniform and those who disgraced it, too.  The one thing I know about my family and those who wear it, is that is with good intent and that is good enough for me.

What have I learned about myself is that I don't lie and I'm not afraid to be who I am.  I feel sorry those who can't speak the truth about themselves.   I can be a lot of things, but the one thing I will always be, is evident to those who know me, I love my country.  I am proud to be American and I am proud to be born an American and will raise my children to love their country, too.

No matter where God takes me in my journey of life, I know that I am American and I have millions who will stand with me.

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Thursday, November 30, 2006


For those of us who live in the Midwest, winter usually comes in fierce and strong.  They have a saying, here in Illinois, "Wait 15 minutes, the weather will change.".  Boy is that true!!!!  Yesterday we were at 65 and by this afternoon it was down to 28 degrees.  The snow hasn't begun to fall yet which is a blessing for all the commuters.

I always look forward to the first big snow fall.  Everything is muffled and I always seem to find a way to sneak off and make a snow angel.  I find it one of God's gifts.  Most, however find it annoying and can't seem to get past the complaining.

Tomorrow is my birthday.  I really don't care much about it.  I am more grateful to have been graced with another year of life.  So, for me, I hope it snows and snows like the dickens!!  More snow; more snow angels!!!

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